Sunday, April 21, 2013

What I Needed to Hear


If you've been reading my posts for a while you know I'm working through adjusting many aspects of my lifestyle.  I'm changing old habits for new ones.  I'm eating healthier foods. I'm exercising much more than I have in years. Last week I talked about needing to change some of my priorities. 

It's been a busy week, perhaps the busiest week I'll see this month.  There's been little time for quiet contemplation and assessment.  It's been run here, prepare for that, don't forget that errand.  Go! Go! Go!  I was mentally and physically exhausted by Saturday evening. That's not very conducive to coming up with creative and effective solutions.

Sometimes the quite of a Sabbath is what I really need.  We're taught in the writings of Moses that God spent 6 days working and then took one day of rest.  We're advised to do the same.  It's so easy to think of all the things we could accomplish on that day off. Errands can be run, yard work, house work, homework, you name it and it seems to fit nicely into a day when part of the world takes a break while the rest rushes on.

A couple of the lessons I heard today were particularly timely for me.  One speaker referred to the story of an anxious father from the New Testament.  His only son was seriously ill. He would fall down suddenly and foam at the mouth.  No one knew how to help the boy. The father begged Jesus to help if he could.  Jesus told him all things are possible if he could believe.  The desperate father answered, "I believe; help thou my unbelief."

The second lesson centered around the metaphor of a buffet.  Life is like a buffet.  You can't eat everything.  You have to make wise choices.  First choose the best selections. Then you add some of the better items.  Finally, if there's room, you add a few of the good things.  This speaker's plate of priorities included: time for God through prayer and scripture study, time for family and integrity.

I'm not perfect.  The goal of perfection is an ongoing project.  Thankfully, God is willing to help where I fall short in my sincere efforts.  Perhaps if I take the time to reassess my priorities through a best, better and good priorities system, I can find a way to spend my time for the greatest good.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Too Many Choices


These past few weeks have been busy ones for our family. I've been gone for two seminars while still working to manage our household, keep up with my boys' schedules and trying to stay on track with my personal goals.

I have been privileged to have the opportunity to attend seminars taught by some of the most knowledgeable herbalists around. It's been an eye opening experience to get glimpses of some of the science behind old time herbal medicines. Spending time with Susan Belsinger, a culinary herbalist has inspired me to do much more with herbs than grow them. I want to take the time to learn more so I can use them in foods effectively. I want to develop the knowledge and skill to be able to use herbal medicines as a first level of treatment for my family. It's been an amazing experience. 

I'm still making progress on my weight loss, albeit, more slowly. I've lost 34 pounds now and could be reasonably satisfied with my current weight plus or minus a couple of pounds. I still find that I will snack compulsively when I'm stressed and have the opportunity. Some old habits are hard to break. I'm more fit than I have been in a very long time. There's still work to do there but it's been fun to see changes. I wish I'd made 'before and after' photos like you see in weight loss advertisements. I'm always skeptical of those. 

My progress in learning to swim is slow, ploddingly slow. I am seeing improvement.  I'm much more comfortable in the water than I was three months ago. It's still not my favorite place to be but I can enjoy it. I'm so close to being able to swim now that I look forward to practice time instead of dreading it. Maybe this week will be the week it finally all comes together.

I'm coming into the busiest months of the year for our family. Spring gardening has begun. Preparations for summer 4-H Club competitions are gearing up. Scouting events are competing for slots  in our family calendar. There's so much to do that establishing priorities can be difficult.

One of my goals for this week is to find some quiet time to sit down and prioritize my activities. There's bound to be a way to manage my time more effectively. I'm told it's not wise to run faster than one is able. That makes sense but when there are so many good, worthy choices, settling on just a few is difficult.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Happy March 19th! Ooops! April Fools!

Today would be March 19 if you followed the old Julian calendar. April 1st was considered the beginning of a new year in the Julian calendar. Doesn't having the new year begin on or near the first day of spring make more sense than having a mid-winter celebration?  When old Pope Gregory XIII ordered everyone to switch calendars back in 1582, some folks were, as they are still, reluctant to change.  Those people were April Fools.
 
I happen to like this day and it's traditions of pranks.  I prefer the harmless pranks.  I think it's a genetic tendency.  My father's family has a bit of a history of practical jokes.  I have fond memories of lots of laughter at their gatherings when I was little.
 
My dad tells a story about one of his uncles.  Uncle Cornelous was a prankster.  I remember visiting with him and his wife, Effie.  You had to keep your eye on Cornelous, both eyes if you could.  He loved a good joke.  One morning, back when my dad's family still plowed fields by walking behind mules, Cornelous ran over a snake.  He hid it for later.  When all the men went in for lunch, Cornelous hung back.  He got a piece of bailing wire and tied the dead snake so it trailed behind the mules and plow.  He covered it with a little dirt.  One of his nephews took the plow after lunch.  I hear he did some fancy high stepping when that snake came out of the dirt right under his feet.
 
My uncle Hayes was another one you had to watch.  He could tell the tallest tales with the straightest face I've seen.  You had to watch for the tale-tell crinkle at the corner of his eye and the tiniest sign of a grin at the corner of his lip.  I was never quite sure whether to believe him or not.  It was all in good fun.  I loved it when I got to hang out with him.
 
In the honorable tradition of my fore-bearers, I have participated in pranks today.  I've been on the receiving end of a prank or two as well. It's been a good day.

Happy April Fools Day!  May your new year be filled with good humor and laughter.

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Memories from My Parents' Garden


I was prompted to take some time to recall my parents' garden this week.  I've got all these little snapshot memories and haven't put them down in writing before.  May I suggest you give it a try.  I started with a drawing of my parents' garden. It ended up being more of a map of memories than a map of the garden.
 
My memories of my parent's garden start early with chickens, big, huge, monster chickens.  I remember being a wee small girl and climbing to stand on a broken cinder block while holding a stick so I would be bigger and badder than the big white birds.  One of my next memories of the garden is of my father carrying my across the yard on his shoulders.  We were going to check on the plums for a snack.  We didn't know it but that day there was someone else checking the tree for snacks as well.  I came almost face to face with a big black snake draped across a limb.  I think I screamed.  I never could walk under that tree after that without checking it thoroughly for snakes.

Parts of the four acre plot changed over the years but a few features stayed constant.  There was a small pole barn, or big shed, out back.  It had 4 four rooms and an open bay. It had the old smokehouse on one corner.  I never saw that used for anything other than storage space.  There was the old brooder house on another corner.  That was where we kept potatoes spread in a layer on an old door elevated with cinder blocks.  The old hen house section was a no-visit zone for me.  It was crowded with old pieces of equipment and, I was sure, multitudes of big black snakes.  The open bay in the middle had the lawn mower, a tiller and Dad's gardening supplies. There was a big gourd hanging from the ceiling with a hole for a bird's nest. One little open storage room on the front was my playhouse.  The walls were lined with hoes, rakes, shovels, a draw blade and several other long handled tools for yard work.  There was also a wagon loaded with sand, a tiny chair and kitchen table, a doll bed an old mirrored medicine cabinet and a shelf for my own outdoor home necessities.  I made many a sand cake and sand muffins for my imaginary family there.  That's where I kept my walking sticks.  I had one made from a crooked tree just like my great-grandmothers.  I also kept a taller one or two.  My favorite was a length of bamboo from a neighbor's roll of carpet.  I took the stick with me everywhere I went.  I imagined it helped to scare the snakes out of my path.  Are you seeing a common theme there? I was NOT fond of snakes.

The vegetable garden was HUGE at least it was in my eyes.  Many long rows meant many hours of work hoeing, picking, washing, and canning or freezing fresh vegetables.  One of my favorite things was to check to see if the Four O’clocks were blooming on time. Then I'd go over to the tomatoes and find a nice, warm, ripe one.  I could sneak a tomato before supper. If I was careful with the juice, I wouldn't get caught.

My bedroom had two windows, one faced east, the other north.  We had a security light near the shed that lit the yard with an odd purplish glow at night.  I used to slip out of bed and check both windows late at night.  If I was lucky, I'd see rabbits.  Sometimes only one, sometimes several.  The best times were when I'd find a family of rabbits playing tag.  It would have been so much fun if I could have joined them.  I understood the rules perfectly.  Alas, we two-legs are no fun for little rabbits.

One year my mom decided to grow pretty little decorative pepper plants in place of flowers in a container.  I was fascinated by the compact little bushes with multi-hued peppers pointing skyward.  They looked like colorful candles of green, yellow, red and purple.  My parents liked to eat them but I had no love for the zing of hot pepper.  In the fall Mom wanted to collect seed to replant the peppers next year. My sister and I were given the job of seeding out some dry pods.  The pods were tough and I couldn't tear them open.  Being a resourceful child, I did as I'd done with many a chip bag or candy wrapper and grabbed the end of the pepper in my teeth to tear it open.  Yep, you guessed it. I got a full dose of the heat from that little packet of spicy joy.  Eight glasses of water later, I learned that water does not cool the heat of peppers.  It's been a lifelong lesson that's served to keep me away from them.

It's funny how I still take a stick with me when I go walking.  I don't mind the snakes quite so much now but I'd be happy if they go about minding their business a little distance from where I'm minding my business. I still avoid those little red peppers.

 

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Ever-changing Boundaries

I hit another of my checkpoints in my progress this week.  I wanted to be able to hike by mid-March.  I know that's a vague goal but I didn't know what opportunities I'd have to put it to the test.  Spring Break for our local public schools provided the answer.  I arranged a 5 mile hike for my Webelos Cub Scout and some of our Troop's Boy Scouts at a near-by State Park.  

It seemed like a good test opportunity.  The terrain is very gently rolling hills and flat land. The trail covers hardwood forest, pine forest and wetland areas. The trail is well marked and reasonably well maintained in a woodsy sort of way.  The weather was near perfect, sunny and  cool but not too cool.  I planned a quick warm lunch for after the hike.  I recruited 2 other adults to go along.  You've got to have that two-deep leadership on all Scouting activities. It's a good thing, indeed.

I packed light in preparation for the walk. I had a day pack with a water bottle, some mixed nuts in a bag, my wallet, my phone, car keys and a hiking pole for extra support. Within the first mile I knew this was going to be a difficult walk. Even with my weigh loss, my dear old arthritic hip complained with almost every step. I walked very slowly compared to the boys. They would walk ahead with one leader and wait for me to catch up. I was discouraged, to say the least.  Bits of debris and the ever-present Sweet Gum tree balls made footing more difficult than I'd anticipated.  Minuscule shifts of position and weight distribution that would normally go unnoticed became the focus of my attention.  I couldn't enjoy the sights, sounds and smells of the woods. At about the 2 mile mark there was a opportunity for me to walk back to our starting point while everyone else hiked a 2 mile out-of-the-way loop.  I walked the last of my 3 miles alone.

I had some time to think during that final mile.  I was disappointed.  I was discouraged. I wasn't completely surprised or I think it would have been harder for me to cope.  I knew this was a possibility.  If I had not found a 3rd adult to go along I would not have had the luxury of leaving the group.  Either I would have had to walk the full 5 miles with them or they would have had to cut their hike short.  I was grateful I didn't need to use either of those options.

Now I need to back up and re-evaluate my goal.  I'm still learning my limits and those seem to change from day to day.  Was my goal too far out of reach or did I reach for it too soon. Did I expect too much in trying to keep up with a group of energetic young boys?  Perhaps hiking is still a possibility at shorter distances and a slower pace.

I don't know the answer.  I'm still feeling this one out.  I've got some opportunities this week to do some walking in rougher terrain at my own pace.  Perhaps I'll get a glimpse of my answers.

Monday, March 11, 2013

A Lesson from The Gambler


First, I must offer apologies for completely forgetting to post a blog entry yesterday.  I had every intention of doing that but I was struggling with a decision and simply forgot to write.

I've got a weakness for story tellers. I couldn't get enough of having stories read to me when I was little. I'd pester my parents, grandparents and great-grandmother for stories from when they were children. As a consequence, I like ballads.

I'm not typically a fan of country music but I'll make an exception for the balladeers.  One of my favorites is Kenny Rogers. I love his not-too-perfect way of singing.  It adds an element of sincerity to the songs.  One of my favorite Kenny Rogers songs is The Gambler. 
 
I don't know that I've attempted to play poker more than once or twice but I understand the concept.  I feel like I've been playing poker with my computer and some of the software for months.  I'm trying to clear off and older machine to pass on to one of my sons.  I've been stuck half way between the the two machines for several months while I worked to get one particular program going.  I thought I had it fixed a couple of times.  I even took the drastic measure of starting over.  That meant I moved all the data and licenses I'd transfered to the new machine back to the old one.  I wiped it back to the factory settings and started over.  That didn't fix the problem but it did help me pinpoint a software conflict. I know there are some poker analogies to be drawn there.  I can imagine working with a hand of cards or giving them up and starting with a fresh set.  Yep, that's the software game I've been playing.
 
Well, I've decided to listen to the advice of the old gambler from the Kenny Rogers song. "You've got to know when to hold 'em. Know when to fold 'em. Know when to walk away. Know when to run."  I don't think I'm running but I am going to fold on this project and walk away. I'm done all I can do. I've found an older computer that this one bit of critical software will work on.  It works beautifully there.  That's where I'm going to leave it until I find someone who can tell me what more to do.  I'm not going to waste any more time trying to get the software tech support to respond. They've not responded in two months anyway.
 
I'm done. I'm moving on with more important projects.
 
Kenny, sing to me!

The Gambler by  sung by Kenny Rogers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jj4nJ1YEAp4

The Highwayman by Jimmy Webb, sung by Willie Nelson, Waylon Jennings, Chris Christopherson and Johnny Cash
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw1bHaUk1CM

The Highwayman by Alfred Noyes, sung by Loreena McKennitt
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=teq2m0BN-Wo

Monday, March 4, 2013

Continuing Education

I'm running a little late with my blog this week. I've been more preoccupied than usual due to a presentation I needed to prepare to give today.

It's been a long time since I've done anything like this. It was only a 4-5 minute speech with an accompanying slide show. It shouldn't have been too difficult. I found myself agonizing over it. I wanted it to be just right. I really wanted to have it memorized so my presentation would sound natural.

That didn't happen, at least not as well as I'd have liked. I didn't trust myself to remember the material and I didn't feel I could afford to stumble over my words. I ended up reading a lot of it. I read it well because I'd practiced it aloud many, many times.

Thankfully, the project I was presenting has merit and was well received in spite of my nerves. I'm excited that, maybe, I've managed to play a small part in helping this project go forward.

Perhaps it would be wise of me to find reasons to practice skills I needed today more. I need to flex my gray cells through memorization exercises. I should probably more readily accept opportunities to get up in front of people, especially adults. That's not my nature.

It's so easy to allow oneself to get comfortable doing the same kinds of things over and over. That's fine in some ways. It's destructive in others. If we're not learning and stretching ourselves aren't we actually loosing ground? An infant begins life learning. A child continues that process. Why, as adults, do we become satisfied with less?

Come on! Let's get out there and learn something new, try something new, and live a new experience. It's time to grow a little.



Let us continue, brethren and sisters, to work in the name of the Lord our God; gathering wisdom and intelligence day by day, that every circumstance which transpires may minister to our good and increase our faith and intelligence. Lorenzo Snow